Tonight I am working on my tattoo that I have wanted to get for the last two years. I kept saying, "Oh, I will get it after THIS surgery, when I am better."
Well, I might never be better. But it is time to do this to symbolize my journey through the last three years.
The tattoo will have the words "Patient Endurance" and "Heb. 10:32" to symbolize my life verse during this time. It will also have three birds to symbolize the three major back surgeries I have had. I am considering a lightening bold to be striking one of the birds to symbolize the electricity from the SCS. (...kidding...) The tattoo will be in the middle of my back, right below the neck line of a shirt.
I write this, knowing that I will have people (ahem... mom... dad... grandma... ) who will be saying "You are doing WHAT?"
But as I have dreamed and designed this tattoo... it is more than a tattoo.
It is war paint in a war I have had with pain for 3 years.
It is a symbol of healing in the trials I have gone through.
It is a sign of God's faithfulness through this time, and his faithfulness that will continue as I continue this journey with pain.
It is a representation of the freedom and flying away from the bondage that pain has had on my life and hope of soaring to a "new normal".
Trying to design and sketch has made me think, as I form each letter, about each step of the journey. From moving boxes. To having physical therapy. To working when I could barely walk. To injections. To people bringing us food. To help in cleaning our house and doing our laundry. To the love and prayers that have gotten me through.
So yes, friends, April 28 I will no longer be allowed to be buried in a Jewish cemetery. But I will have my battle paint to show of what has been and what is to come.
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